(Bangkok)
I moved to Thailand to live with my Thai wife about three years ago in early 2011. The doctors in Thailand reduced my medication drastically. After about six months I became very irritable. Little things greatly irritated me. After time went on, the stress from my job started taking its toll on me. I was highly stressed and experiencing marital problems which only made things worse. Later I began to think about the world and the direction humanity is going. I felt a deep feeling of the need to inform the population about where we are heading to the future. To me it was a very scary, lonely, cold, desolate journey that we are on. I felt that we are becoming more and more alike with ultimately no differences at all. Everyone was a programmed, mindless being, doing only as directed. We were in fact being funneled into a channel not knowing fact from fiction and only able to do as trained. The training mechanism is of course the TV, music, news shows, etc. I made an attempt to warn people though not remembering exactly what it was that I did to warn the people because this was the height of my mania. I just remember trying to make anyone who would listen understand our future. I thought everyone was slightly aware that something is taking place and they could therefore understand my message and behavior. After I began to come down my wife followed through on our divorce. But I became aware of the group consciousness in Thailand. There is an unspoken word to conform to Thailand's ancient culture in order to be a part of society. Now about a year later this group consciousness is still very apparent to me as I am conforming to the culture here.
Ben's Response:
Thanks for your story. I hope your path is leading you to a balanced and conscious state of mind. I think your insights about the mindless mass media influence has a lot of merit (not really so delusional). However, what often happens in mania that causes confusion and poor judgment, is a sort of over-generalization of the world "out there" and a split between self and world in which the world needs to be saved and you are the savior.
By staying conscious, grounded and self-aware, you are contributing to a better future for all. I wish you peace and good health.
Ben Schwarcz
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