Thank you so much for this article.
I read an article a while ago about shamanism and I was immediately intrigued. As someone with bipolar I have spent a large portion of my life misunderstood and hurt by the society's views on mental illness. My last manic episode, a year ago (after a long time of being stable) seemed to be different from the rest. I was very aware of my state and did very well at hiding it. My state was much more ritualistic than it had ever been. I do not preform rituals or in any way believe in "witchcraft." But under my mania I seemed to have preformed some sort of spell that lasted two days, I just remember I was extremely sensitive to smells and colours.
Basically my ritual was meant to banish my "demons" some hurt I had been experiencing for my entire life. I had just let go of a negative relationship and it felt like I was doing some inner cleaning. It was extremely scary because I literally felt like I was fighting them off ... Certain colours protected me and I had made a triangle ( or something ) around myself For protection. A wine glass fell from my counter top as I was trying to fight off the "demons" ( also note I was not hallucinating only able to "smell" it. And it smelled disgusting. For some reason I remember associating it to the lime colour green. Anyway the wine
Comments for Mania or prophetic wisdom?
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