I just turned 16 3 months ago..
I've been having the symptoms of major depression for 7-8 months now but nobody has a clue because I just suffer in silence; I choose to because in my culture and country, that's not really common or acceptable.
Actually, I don't have an option.
Anyway, recently I started to find myself talking to myself saying meaningless words and phrases without being aware of them till after I've said them; hallucinating. This becomes very embarrassing in public.
Are these 2 issues linked or is this normal or is it a different problem?
When you say "these two issues" - I'm not sure what you mean exactly. Talking to yourself with meaningless words or phrases and hallucinating? What you described isn't hallucinating. Hallucinations are the perceptions of sounds (most often voices) or the visual perception of people/things that are not physically there.
If that's what you are experiencing, then yes, those two things could be related. There are a number of things that could lead a person to unconsciously or impulsively say words or phrases that may be inappropriate or have no meaning. Tourette's Disorder is one possibility. Psychosis is another. In a Major Depression, some people experience psychotic symptoms - which can show up as a detached, dream-like state, hallucinations or delusions and a decreased level of self-awareness.
I've also seen people do this sort of thing when they are in a dissociative state, such as when there has been a severe emotional trauma that remains unresolved.
I'm sorry to hear that you live in a place where you feel there is no support for these things.
If you have no access to medical treatment, maybe you can try to treat yourself nutritionally. Omega-3 fatty acids (such as found in fish oil), vitamin B12, and Vitamin D3 are some of the most important (and often deficient) supplements for brain functioning and mood.
Meridian Tapping is another excellent treatment for depression that you can learn to use for yourself.
Wishing you the best,
Ben Schwarcz, MFT
Santa Rosa Psychotherapist