Fear of Growing Anger and Rage
I'm a 49-year-old female diagnosed Bipolar 1, Borderline Personality Disorder, and PTSD. I've been off and on a multitude of medications but want/need a healthy alternative. I'm an ultra-rapid cycler but tend to be manic - very manic. My mania usually manifests itself as intense energy, speaking and moving quickly, just being very hyper and getting a lot done. But lately I find that energy becoming a growing anger. I seem to be on a constant state of alert - waiting for trouble.
I've been involved in two minor road-rage situations recently and I've had arguments with people (strangers included) about the smallest things. It's like the safety valve has been removed. I'm putting myself in dangerous situations and I don't seem to be concerned about the possible consequences. What happened to the happy manic?
I just purchased your book and audio recordings and am determined to get started today. I'm desperate to find a more peaceful environment within myself. How quickly can these methods begin working? Is meditation the key to calming this growing internal chaos?
Your motivation for change is the most important thing. Do some meditation and EFT daily, without fail and your persistence will pay off. Just make it a daily practice; Don't have expectations about how long it will take; you don't want to set yourself up for failure by expecting a particular outcome. It's a process - but it works if you stick to it. Even if you don't notice immediate results, it is a cumulative effect. The longer you keep with it, the more you will start to notice things changing for the better.
And yes, meditation is the best way to calm the inner chaos.
Let me know how it goes.
Ben Schwarcz, MFT
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