For about 6 years now I have been doing something that most people think is abnormal. I have tried to stop but I have something driving me to keep doing it. I am not hurting anyone or my self as of yet. but I've lost almost all my friends. The thing I am talking about is wanting to and wearing diapers full time and not for medical problems. Why do I want to wear diapers? What is wrong with me?
The compulsion to wear diapers is what would be called a diaper fetish. Some even use the term "DL" or Diaper-Lover for those with this fetish. For some it has a sexual connection, for others, it is non-sexual. There is some infantile memory or feeling recreated by wearing a diaper that may be pleasurable, even if you are not fully conscious of that. It may be a feeling of security, safety, relief of guilt or responsibility, a feeling that you don't have to worry about losing control. It's likely that at the stage of child development when you were in diapers and potty training - something traumatic occurred - or you simply weren't ready. Now you may be trying to soothe yourself by this old association with that early stage of development.
Many people come to accept this attachment and don't view it as a "disorder" or even a problem. It is a question of your own perception and how disruptive it is to your life. If you have known traumas from early life, I would recommend trying EFT for this. It may be a way to resolve any early life experiences that may be related.
My Best Recommendation for working on issues around shame, guilt, addiction or unwanted attachment to diapers in adulthood, would be Amate Growth Work - a very deep and transformational process that effectively resolves unfinished parts of childhood development so that you can reach a feeling of emotional strength, personal power maturity, and peace. The best expert I know who is highly trained in this area is Eva Malanowski, PsyD. You can learn more about her on her website: DrEvaMalanowski.com
This is a Psychodynamic therapeutic process, that does NOT involve touch. It is a type of inner work that helps you to heal and integrate stuck places in early development. If you are serious about wanting help with this attachment, this would be a worthwhile path to explore.