I think i am suffering from Bipolar Disorder, but I am not sure, and I don't want to go to my mom with my thoughts. I know that I won't be able to go to any type of therapist without my mom's help, but all the same... I am afraid that the disorder will get out of hand. Can it?"
Ben's Answer
It is very important to understand that bipolar disorder is very difficult to accurately diagnose - and even mental health professionals often misdiagnose people with it (or without it). If you do have it and you don't take serious steps to manage it - through whatever means - alternative, traditional, or both -- then yes it can get worse. Much worse. Early treatment can save you years of hell.
So I recommend you talk to your mom and see an experienced therapist who is very knowledgeable about bipolar disorder. Also do your own research and reading. Read my website, and become an expert on yourself. Nobody knows yourself better than you do.
-Take Care,
Ben Schwarcz